Schommer.Life

5/7/24

I’ve had a couple of come-to-Jesus moments, or reality checks if you prefer, over the past couple of days. On Saturday evening, while painting my bathroom, I thought, damn I’m exhausted, and then thought about everything I had accomplished throughout the day. 

I cut the grass, frosted a cake, attended a 1 y/o birthday party, searched a park in the heat for my daughter’s phone (I didn’t find it, but she did the next day), did a Home Depot run, and painted the bathroom. All this, after a 72-hour work week (two jobs). Today, while talking to a friend, she said, “That’s like two full-time jobs”. I’m not complaining. I did realize though, I need to slow down! How do you even enjoy life when you’re moving so fast? I enjoy being busy. It keeps me from getting lazy, but I probably don’t need to be this busy. So, I am making myself a promise that I will slow down and enjoy the summer and I hope those of you in the same position will make this promise with me. 

I also realized, after that same friend pointed it out, I am still self-shaming. I called myself stupid and gross today, on two different occasions, and she called me out. Thank you by the way! Self-shaming isn’t anything more than being bullied by yourself. What good is that? What am I telling the Universe and God when I treat myself with such a lack of respect? I’m telling them, I’m happy with being stupid and gross. If I’m happy with myself this way, why would they guide me toward change? They’re not. I also do not believe I am either of these things. I will continue to work on myself and know that I am a smart independent and strong sole, and can do anything I put my heart and mind to. 

I use the words Universe and God because I believe in both, and believe that both the Universe and God have the power to hear and guide me, to make decisions that will benefit me, and bring the results I am looking for. While I at times may use a term you may not agree with, you can exchange that term with your beliefs and celebrate the same results. The power of prayer and the power of positivity are what have supported and guided me to write these words and share them with you today. 

I left off in my last post with encouragement to change and talked a little about my journey over the past three years. I continue to work on me every day. Change and the fight against depression are something that requires attention every day. When I get lazy or forgetful, it surfaces and tries to trip me. Sometimes I fall, my goal is not to not fall, but to get back up, the quicker the better.  Lately, my struggle is my weight. I was on a good track last year and lost, I think, about 30 pounds. I quit smoking on February 1^st and took a break from running at the beginning of March, and I have gained all I lost plus a few more and am at my heaviest right now. This makes getting back out there even harder for me, but today I choose to do it. I love being outside, so when the weather is perfect, it’s easier. I got out today to do my old routine, but couldn’t jog much of it. I walked most of the 4 miles and jammed out to my 90’s music. I felt great when I got home, and I know with work I can get back to running instead of walking. 

I do my best thinking while I’m outside jogging, walking, or running. I thought about how difficult change has been for me. Thought about all the changes I have accomplished, and decided, I will continue to make changes. I know I can get back to running, and lose this weight. I can make healthier choices, and these changes along with slowing down at work, will help my energy levels, and my hope and bring me joy. The one thing that’s missing is a great group of friends to do it with. Here is my promise to you. If you would like to make a change, and partner in supporting each other, send me a message. Text, call, email, or comment. I am not selling anything. I am not promoting anything. I am creating change for myself and inviting you to do the same. We can do this together. 

We got this!

xoxo Schommer.Life